第15章 十二月的过往，元旦的今宵
Dcember running in the rain Chasing down those memories of us Washed away Do you remember How we were together Happyness came easy with your all in mine I'm going underwater I'm feeling needles cut through I see my world getting dark Drowing the wispers Give up on the truth Will you take me away After the rain into a place we will never have to Bear any pain Will it ever be the same Will you feel my embrace No more sleepless night and empty days Tack me away After the rain And maybe we'll be standing with each other hand in hand Start believing that Dreams come true I see you smiling through your eyes I look at pictures of you We won't give up on each other Even it's the last thing that i'll do Take me away After the rain And may be we'll be standing with each other Hand in hand Start believing that Prayers come true Some where out there Someone's waiting for you I'm sure.——2019年12月31号
I'm building castles in the air
Living on my own
The floors would be glittering gold
Monets on the wall
Everyday people come and go
I wonder what remains
Memories that we hold
Ripples on the road
day by day
I’m dancing away the pain
The world tosses and turns
I wait till I'm all alone
Remnants on the wall
Collecting the dreams from before
Dust and ashes
Fall upon my soul
In my castle in the air
My fire turning cold
In my castle in the air
Another castle in the air
Could it be you?
Don’t know if you’re a friend
Or a foe from before
Everyday people come and go
I wonder what remains
Memories dissolve in the rain
Ripples on the road
day by day
I’m dancing away the pain
The world tosses and turns
I wait till I'm all alone
Remnants on the wall
Collecting the dreams from before
Dust and ashes
All over my soul
In my castle in the air
Feel My fire turning cold
In my castle in the air
day by day
I’m dancing away the pain
The world tosses and turns
I wait till I'm all alone
Remnants on the wall
Collecting the dreams from before
Dust and ashes
All over my soul
In my castle in the air
My fire turning cold
In my castle in the air
Remnants on the wall
Collecting the dreams from before
Dust and ashes
Watch over my soul
In my castle in the air
My fire turning cold
In my castle in the air
——2024年1月1号
我心中的那团火已经变冷，但心里这个位置，已经容不下任何人，但现在你也只是深埋心底，不再怀念，在某时候，我就已经死去，因为我自己已经失去了我所有的特征，也失去了对自己而言存在的意义。唯有那份歇斯底里的追求，不再歇斯底里却是我现在活下去的唯一目标和意义。尽管，我没有动力，只能作为机器继续前进着，直到天荒地老，不辱使命。其实只是人生走向了另一条轨迹，这和以前的我完全不同的我和这完全不同的旅程，走到相同的终点，这就够了，这就值得。