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The room was empty, and leaning her bicycle against the house Charity clambered up the slope and sat down on a rock under an old apple-tree.The air was perfectly still, and from where she sat she would be able to hear the tinkle of a bicycle-bell a long way down the road....
She was always glad when she got to the little house before Harney.She liked to have time to take in every detail of its secret sweetness--the shadows of the apple-trees swaying on the grass, the old walnuts rounding their domes below the road, the meadows sloping westward in the afternoon light--before his first kiss blotted it all out.Everything unrelated to the hours spent in that tranquil place was as faint as the remembrance of a dream.The only reality was the wondrous unfolding of her new self, the reaching out to the light of all her contracted tendrils.She had lived all her life among people whose sensibilities seemed to have withered for lack of use; and more wonderful, at first, than Harney's endearments were the words that were a part of them.She had always thought of love as something confused and furtive, and he made it as bright and open as the summer air.
On the morrow of the day when she had shown him the way to the deserted house he had packed up and left Creston River for Boston; but at the first station he had jumped on the train with a hand-bag and scrambled up into the hills.For two golden rainless August weeks he had camped in the house, getting eggs and milk from the solitary farm in the valley, where no one knew him, and doing his cooking over a spirit-lamp.He got up every day with the sun, took a plunge in a brown pool he knew of, and spent long hours lying in the scented hemlock-woods above the house, or wandering along the yoke of the Eagle Ridge, far above the misty blue valleys that swept away east and west between the endless hills.And in the afternoon Charity came to him.
With part of what was left of her savings she had hired a bicycle for a month, and every day after dinner, as soon as her guardian started to his office, she hurried to the library, got out her bicycle, and flew down the Creston road.She knew that Mr.Royall, like everyone else in North Dormer, was perfectly aware of her acquisition: possibly he, as well as the rest of the village, knew what use she made of it.She did not care: she felt him to be so powerless that if he had questioned her she would probably have told him the truth.But they had never spoken to each other since the night on the wharf at Nettleton.He had returned to North Dormer only on the third day after that encounter, arriving just as Charity and Verena were sitting down to supper.He had drawn up his chair, taken his napkin from the side-board drawer, pulled it out of its ring, and seated himself as unconcernedly as if he had come in from his usual afternoon session at Carrick Fry's; and the long habit of the household made it seem almost natural that Charity should not so much as raise her eyes when he entered.She had simply let him understand that her silence was not accidental by leaving the table while he was still eating, and going up without a word to shut herself into her room.
After that he formed the habit of talking loudly and genially to Verena whenever Charity was in the room;but otherwise there was no apparent change in their relations.
She did not think connectedly of these things while she sat waiting for Harney, but they remained in her mind as a sullen background against which her short hours with him flamed out like forest fires.Nothing else mattered, neither the good nor the bad, or what might have seemed so before she knew him.He had caught her up and carried her away into a new world, from which, at stated hours, the ghost of her came back to perform certain customary acts, but all so thinly and insubstantially that she sometimes wondered that the people she went about among could see her....
Behind the swarthy Mountain the sun had gone down in waveless gold.From a pasture up the slope a tinkle of cow-bells sounded; a puff of smoke hung over the farm in the valley, trailed on the pure air and was gone.For a few minutes, in the clear light that is all shadow, fields and woods were outlined with an unreal precision; then the twilight blotted them out, and the little house turned gray and spectral under its wizened apple-branches.
Charity's heart contracted.The first fall of night after a day of radiance often gave her a sense of hidden menace: it was like looking out over the world as it would be when love had gone from it.She wondered if some day she would sit in that same place and watch in vain for her lover....
His bicycle-bell sounded down the lane, and in a minute she was at the gate and his eyes were laughing in hers.
They walked back through the long grass, and pushed open the door behind the house.The room at first seemed quite dark and they had to grope their way in hand in hand.Through the window-frame the sky looked light by contrast, and above the black mass of asters in the earthen jar one white star glimmered like a moth.