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The following morning Mr.Pontellier, upon leaving for his office, asked Edna if she would not meet him in town in order to look at some new fixtures for the library.

"I hardly think we need new fixtures, Leonce.Don't let us get anything new; you are too extravagant.I don't believe you ever think of saving or putting by.""The way to become rich is to make money, my dear Edna, not to saveit," he said.He regretted that she did not feel inclined to go with him and select new fixtures.He kissed her good-by, and told her she was not looking well and must take care of herself.She was unusually pale and very quiet.

She stood on the front veranda as he quitted the house, and absently picked a few sprays of jessamine that grew upon a trellis near by.She inhaled the odor of the blossoms and thrust them into the bosom of her white morning gown.The boys were dragging along the banquette a small "express wagon," which they had filled with blocks and sticks.The quadroon was following them with little quick steps, having assumed a fictitious animation and alacrity for the occasion.A fruit vender was crying his wares in the street.

Edna looked straight before her with a self-absorbed expression upon her face.She felt no interest in anything about her.The street, the children, the fruit vender, the flowers growing there under her eyes, were all part and parcel of an alien world which had suddenly become antagonistic.

She went back into the house.She had thought of speaking to the cook concerning her blunders of the previous night; but Mr.Pontellier had saved her that disagreeable mission, for which she was so poorly fitted.Mr.Pontellier's arguments were usually convincing with those whom he employed.He left home feeling quite sure that he and Edna would sit down that evening, and possibly a few subsequent evenings, to a dinner deserving of the name.

Edna spent an hour or two in looking over some of her old sketches.She could see their shortcomings and defects, which were glaring in her eyes.She tried to work a little, but found she was not in the humor.Finally she gathered together a few of the sketches--those which she considered the least discreditable; and she carried them with her when, a little later, she dressed and left the house.She looked handsome and distinguished in her street gown.The tan of the seashore had left her face, and her forehead was smooth, white, and polished beneath her heavy, yellow-brown hair.There were a few freckles on her face, and a small, dark mole near the under lip and one on the temple, half-hidden in herhair.

As Edna walked along the street she was thinking of Robert.She was still under the spell of her infatuation.She had tried to forget him, realizing the inutility of remembering.But the thought of him was like an obsession, ever pressing itself upon her.It was not that she dwelt upon details of their acquaintance, or recalled in any special or peculiar way his personality; it was his being, his existence, which dominated her thought, fading sometimes as if it would melt into the mist of the forgotten, reviving again with an intensity which filled her with an incomprehensible longing.