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During these absences Mrs Verloc, becoming acutely aware of the vacant place at her right hand, missed her mother very much and stared stonily;while Stevie, from the same reason, kept on shuffling his feet, as though the floor under the table were uncomfortably hot.When Mr Verloc returned to sit in his place, like the very embodiment of silence, the character of Mrs Verloc's stare underwent a subtle change, and Stevie ceased to fidget with his feet, because of his great and awed regard for his sister's husband.

He directed at him glances of respectful compassion.Mr Verloc was sorry.

His sister Winnie had impressed upon him (in the omnibus) that Mr Verloc would be found at home in a state of sorrow, and must not be worried.His father's anger, the irritability of gentlemen lodgers, and Mr Verloc's predisposition to immoderate grief, had been the main sanctions of Stevie's self-restraint.Of these sentiments, all easily provoked, but not always easy to understand, the last had the greatest moral efficiency - because Mr Verloc was good.His mother and his sister had established that ethical fact on an unshakable foundation.They had established, erected, consecrated it behind Mr Verloc's back, for reasons that had nothing to do with abstract morality.And Mr Verloc was not aware of it.It is but bare justice to him to say that he had no notion of appearing good to Stevie.

Yet so it was.He was even the only man so qualified in Stevie's knowledge, because the gentlemen lodgers had been too transient and too remote to have anything very distinct about them but perhaps their boots; and as regards the disciplinary measures of his father, the desolation of his mother and sister shrank from setting up a theory of goodness before the victim.It would have been too cruel.And it was even possible that Stevie would not have believed them.As far as Mr Verloc was concerned, nothing could stand in the way of Stevie's belief.Mr Verloc was obviously yet mysteriously good.And the grief of a good man is august.

Stevie gave glances of reverential compassion to his brother-in-law.

Mr Verloc was sorry.The brother of Winnie had never before felt himself in such close communion with the mystery of that man's goodness.It was an understandable sorrow.And Stevie himself was sorry.He was very sorry.

The same sort of sorrow.And his attention being drawn to this unpleasant state, Stevie shuffled his feet.His feelings were habitually manifested by the agitation of his limbs.

`Keep your feet quiet, dear,' said Mrs Verloc, with authority and tenderness;then turning towards her husband in an indifferent voice, the masterly achievement of instinctive tact: `Are you going out tonight?' she asked.

The mere suggestion seemed repugnant to Mr Verloc.He shook his head moodily, and then sat still with downcast eyes, looking at the piece of cheese on his plate for a whole minute.At the end of that time he got up, and went out - went right out in the clatter of the shop-door bell.

He acted thus inconsistently, not from any desire to make himself unpleasant, but because of an unconquerable restlessness.It was no earthly good going out.He could not find anywhere in London what he wanted.But he went out.

He led a cortege of dismal thoughts along dark streets, through lighted streets, in and out of two Bash bars, as if in a half-hearted attempt to make a night of it, and finally back again to his menaced home, where he sat down fatigued behind the counter, and they crowded urgently round him, like a pack of hungry black hounds.After locking up the house and putting out the gas he took them upstairs with him - a dreadful escort for a man going to bed.His wife had preceded him some time before, and with her ample form defined vaguely under the counterpane, her head on the pillow, and a hand under the cheek, offered to his distraction the view of early drowsiness arguing the possession of an equable soul.Her big eyes stared wide open, inert and dark against the snowy whiteness of the linen.She did not move.

She had an equable soul.She felt profoundly that things do not stand much looking into.She made her force and her wisdom of that instinct.

But the taciturnity of Mr Verloc had been lying heavily upon her for a good many days.It was, as a matter of fact, affecting her nerves.Recumbent and motionless, she said placidly:

`You'll catch cold walking about in your socks like this.'

This speech, becoming the solicitude of the wife and the prudence of the woman, took Mr Verloc unawares.He had left his boots downstairs, but he had forgotten to put on his slippers, and he had been turning about the bedroom on noiseless pads like a bear in a cage.At the sound of his wife's voice he stopped and stared at her with a somnambulistic, expressionless gaze so long that Mrs Verloc moved her limbs slightly under the bedclothes.

But she did not move her black head sunk in the white pillow, one hand under her cheek and the big, dark, unwinking eyes.