第30章

'"O sir, it is the Death-watch ticking for me!"'"Well!" he answered."And if it were?" '"O sir!" she returned to him, "look kindly on me, and be merciful to me! I beg your pardon.I will do anything you wish, if you will only forgive me!"'That had become the poor fool's constant song: "I beg your pardon," and "Forgive me!"'She was not worth hating; he felt nothing but contempt for her.But, she had long been in the way, and he had long been weary, and the work was near its end, and had to be worked out.

'"You fool," he said."Go up the stairs!"

'She obeyed very quickly, murmuring, "I will do anything you wish!" When he came into the Bride's Chamber, having been a little retarded by the heavy fastenings of the great door (for they were alone in the house,and he had arranged that the people who attended on them should come and go in the day), he found her withdrawn to the furthest corner, and there standing pressed against the paneling as if she would have shrunk through it: her flaxen hair all wild about her face, and her large eyes staring at him in vague terror.

'"What are you afraid of?Come and sit down by me."'"I will do anything you wish.I beg your pardon, sir.Forgive me!" Her monotonous tune as usual.

'"Ellen, here is a writing that you must write out to-morrow, in your own hand.You may as well be seen by others, busily engaged upon it.When you have written it all fairly, and corrected all mistakes, call in any two people there may be about the house, and sign your name to it before them.Then, put it in your bosom to keep it safe, and when I sit here again to-morrow night, give it to me."'"I will do it all, with the greatest care.I will do anything you wish." '"Don't shake and tremble, then."'"I will try my utmost not to do it - if you will only forgive me!"'Next day, she sat down at her desk, and did as she had been told.He often passed in and out of the room, to observe her, and always saw her slowly and laboriously writing: repeating to herself the words she copied, in appearance quite mechanically, and without caring or endeavouring to comprehend them, so that she did her task.He saw her follow the directions she had received, in all particulars; and at night, when they were alone again in the same Bride's Chamber, and he drew his chair to the hearth, she timidly approached him from her distant seat, took the paper from her bosom, and gave it into his hand.

'It secured all her possessions to him, in the event of her death.He put her before him, face to face, that he might look at her steadily; and he asked her, in so many plain words, neither fewer nor more, did she know that?

'There were spots of ink upon the bosom of her white dress, and they made her face look whiter and her eyes look larger as she nodded her head.There were spots of ink upon the hand with which she stood before him, nervously plaiting and folding her white skirts.

'He took her by the arm, and looked her, yet more closely and steadily, in the face. "Now, die!I have done with you."'She shrunk, and uttered a low, suppressed cry.

'"I am not going to kill you.I will not endanger my life for yours.Die!"'He sat before her in the gloomy Bride's Chamber, day after day, night after night, looking the word at her when he did not utter it.As often as her large unmeaning eyes were raised from the hands in which she rocked her head, to the stern figure, sitting with crossed arms and knitted forehead, in the chair, they read in it, "Die!" When she dropped asleep in exhaustion, she was called back to shuddering consciousness, by the whisper, "Die!" When she fell upon her old entreaty to be pardoned, she was answered "Die!" When she had out-watched and out-suffered the long night, and the rising sun flamed into the sombre room, she heard it hailed with, "Another day and not dead? - Die!"'Shut up in the deserted mansion, aloof from all mankind, and engaged alone in such a struggle without any respite, it came to this - that either he must die, or she.He knew it very well, and concentrated his strength against her feebleness.Hours upon hours he held her by the arm when her arm was black where he held it, and bade her Die!

'It was done, upon a windy morning, before sunrise.He computed the time to be half-past four; but, his forgotten watch had run down, and he could not be sure.She had broken away from him in the night, with loud and sudden cries - the first of that kind to which she had given vent - and he had had to put his hands over her mouth.Since then, she had been quiet in the corner of the paneling where she had sunk down; and he had left her, and had gone back with his folded arms and his knitted forehead to his chair.

'Paler in the pale light, more colourless than ever in the leaden dawn, he saw her coming, trailing herself along the floor towards him - a white wreck of hair, and dress, and wild eyes, pushing itself on by an irresolute and bending hand.

'"O, forgive me!I will do anything.O, sir, pray tell me I may live!" '"Die!"'"Are you so resolved?Is there no hope for me?" '"Die!"'Her large eyes strained themselves with wonder and fear; wonder and fear changed to reproach; reproach to blank nothing.It was done.He was not at first so sure it was done, but that the morning sun was hanging jewels in her hair - he saw the diamond, emerald, and ruby, glittering among it in little points, as he stood looking down at her - when he lifted her and laid her on her bed.

'She was soon laid in the ground.And now they were all gone, and he had compensated himself well.