第2章 THE MOUNTAIN HOME(2)
Below,the valley with its lake and river picked out in rose and gold against the shadowy greens of field and forest,seemed like some enchanted fairyland of loveliness.
And all this was in David's violin,and all this,too,was on David's uplifted,rapturous face.
As the last rose-glow turned to gray and the last strain quivered into silence,the man spoke.His voice was almost harsh with self-control.
"David,the time has come.We'll have to give it up--you and I."The boy turned wonderingly,his face still softly luminous.
"Give what up?"
"This--all this."
"This!Why,father,what do you mean?This is home!"The man nodded wearily.
"I know.It has been home;but,David,you didn't think we could always live here,like this,did you?"David laughed softly,and turned his eyes once more to the distant sky-line.
Why not?"he asked dreamily."What better place could there be?Ilike it,daddy."
The man drew a troubled breath,and stirred restlessly.The teasing pain in his side was very bad to-night,and no change of position eased it.He was ill,very ill;and he knew it.Yet he also knew that,to David,sickness,pain,and death meant nothing--or,at most,words that had always been lightly,almost unconsciously passed over.For the first time he wondered if,after all,his training--some of it--had been wise.
For six years he had had the boy under his exclusive care and guidance.For six years the boy had eaten the food,worn the clothing,and studied the books of his father's choosing.For six years that father had thought,planned,breathed,moved,lived for his son.There had been no others in the little cabin.There had been only the occasional trips through the woods to the little town on the mountain-side for food and clothing,to break the days of close companionship.
All this the man had planned carefully.He had meant that only the good and beautiful should have place in David's youth.It was not that he intended that evil,unhappiness,and death should lack definition,only definiteness,in the boy's mind.It should be a case where the good and the beautiful should so fill the thoughts that there would be no room for anything else.This had been his plan.And thus far he had succeeded--succeeded so wonderfully that he began now,in the face of his own illness,and of what he feared would come of it,to doubt the wisdom of that planning.
As he looked at the boy's rapt face,he remembered David's surprised questioning at the first dead squirrel he had found in the woods.David was six then.
"Why,daddy,he's asleep,and he won't wake up!"he had cried.
Then,after a gentle touch:"And he's cold--oh,so cold!"The father had hurried his son away at the time,and had evaded his questions;and David had seemed content.But the next day the boy had gone back to the subject.His eyes were wide then,and a little frightened.
"Father,what is it to be--dead?"
"What do you mean,David?"
"The boy who brings the milk--he had the squirrel this morning.
He said it was not asleep.It was--dead."
"It means that the squirrel,the real squirrel under the fur,has gone away,David.""Where?"
"To a far country,perhaps."
"Will he come back?"
"No."
"Did he want to go?"
"We'll hope so."
"But he left his--his fur coat behind him.Didn't he need--that?""No,or he'd have taken it with him."
David had fallen silent at this.He had remained strangely silent indeed for some days;then,out in the woods with his father one morning,he gave a joyous shout.He was standing by the ice-covered brook,and looking at a little black hole through which the hurrying water could be plainly seen.
"Daddy,oh,daddy,I know now how it is,about being--dead.""Why--David!"
"It's like the water in the brook,you know;THAT'S going to a far country,and it isn't coming back.And it leaves its little cold ice-coat behind it just as the squirrel did,too.It does n't need it.It can go without it.Don't you see?And it's singing--listen!--it's singing as it goes.It WANTS to go!""Yes,David."And David's father had sighed with relief that his son had found his own explanation of the mystery,and one that satisfied.
Later,in his books,David found death again.It was a man,this time.The boy had looked up with startled eyes.
"Do people,real people,like you and me,be dead,father?Do they go to a far country?
"Yes,son in time--to a far country ruled over by a great and good King they tell us.
David's father had trembled as he said it,and had waited fearfully for the result.But David had only smiled happily as he answered:
"But they go singing,father,like the little brook.You know Iheard it!"
And there the matter had ended.David was ten now,and not yet for him did death spell terror.Because of this David's father was relieved;and yet--still because of this--he was afraid.
"David,"he said gently."Listen to me."
The boy turned with a long sigh.
"Yes,father."
"We must go away.Out in the great world there are men and women and children waiting for you.You've a beautiful work to do;and one can't do one's work on a mountain-top.""Why not?I like it here,and I've always been here.""Not always,David;six years.You were four when I brought you here.You don't remember,perhaps."David shook his head.His eyes were again dreamily fixed on the sky.
"I think I'd like it--to go--if I could sail away on that little cloud-boat up there,"he murmured.
The man sighed and shook his head.
"We can't go on cloud-boats.We must walk,David,for a way--and we must go soon--soon,"he added feverishly."I must get you back--back among friends,before--"He rose unsteadily,and tried to walk erect.His limbs shook,and the blood throbbed at his temples.He was appalled at his weakness.With a fierceness born of his terror he turned sharply to the boy at his side.
"David,we've got to go!We've got to go--TO-MORROW!""Father!"
"Yes,yes,come!"He stumbled blindly,yet in some way he reached the cabin door.
Behind him David still sat,inert,staring.The next minute the boy had sprung to his feet and was hurrying after his father.